Tuesday, March 5, 2013
First things first everyone is probaly wondering how Myah is doing. Well she is still standing in the storm. She repeated Kindergarten. she is still struggling with speech and reading. But is sharp as a tack. We continue to support her the best we know how and decided to let her bloom when she was ready. Dont get me wrong she is speaking 3 word sentences and can read 60 words but she is delayed. Thats ok, she was delayed in getting a family and everything worked out just fine.
With everything that I have learned from my daughter I decided it was time to do something with it. I am the Founder on a non-profit organization that started all because on my little wonton. I have been working feverishly to get all the paper work needed and figure out how I was going to pay for it since I already have $100,000 in medical bills that await payment. So to add on another expense was not the wisest of things to do at the time....but its a calling...so in essence I might be the Founder of the program but in reality it FOUND me...
I am anxiuos to share this new chapter of our lives with you..Please take a peek...
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Whatever the reason, I am abundantly thankful that God has brought our sweet girl into our family forever! God has changed us because of her story.
I once was lost, but now am found.I once was blind, but now I see!
I am completely unworthy of His Amazing Grace!
I love my kids and I am proud to say my boys have stepped up to the plate and learned everything I know on how to treat her medically and have been a huge help to me. We work like a fine oiled machine when in crisis. I am beyond proud of my clan. they fill in during the night when she wakes up in pain and soothe her back to sleep. They have been a reflection of me..PRICELESS !
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
When she was younger I wished she was older so I can rationalize with her..but now that I can rationalize and she understands whats to come..I wish she was younger and didnt have a clue...
the Statue of Liberty...
Myah girl !
I hate this face..the look of fear and the look to see if I'm going with her..
But I was not allowed...she she screamed MOMMA all the way down the hall...brought me straight to my knees...
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
School attire said collared shirts...momma says a Halter collared shirt is more stylish !
of all days , she tied her shoes on her own today...a clear indication she was ready for school
1st Day of school..
Sunday, August 14, 2011
The first day of kindergarten was always an emotional one for me. But I managed to make it through it with my 3 boys. It was a sure sign that my children were getting older and entering a new chapter in their lives. Everything that I have invested in them and how to treat others is going to be be put to the test. Feet to the fire!! But this year Myah starts Kindergarten and its a totally different emotion.
I stopped by the school to leave her paperwork. The moment I stepped out of my van, my stomach started turning. For her its NEW place, NEW faces, NEW voices, NEW smell...totally out of her comfort zone. Even though my 3 boys were in the same school they were in different grades. Myah would have to navigate and try to make her way with new friends that talk and start creating their circle of friends. How would she do with just flashing a smile..how far would it get her? Mainstream is not like her special needs class.
As I walked out of the building tears streamed down my face. Myah's paperwork paints a totally different picture than who she is. It reads THERAPY, PT, LANGUAGE THERAPY,SPEECH THERAPY, NOT VERBAL, SPECIAL NEEDS CHILD,extra time, extra effort, meds in nurses office, pager attached to child for potty reminder ect.. My heart ached as I thought of the perception that was painted of her to the normal person.
I got in the car and said "OKAY LORD, I AM TIRED OF BEING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE...can't I just feel an INCH of peace in my heart?!??! Just let me SIT in my peace of mind for just a moment. aaarrrggghhhh. He whispered to me, "you will sit in the peace that only I can give...not what this world can give you, and it is far greater than anything that you could ever feel from the world." So, that is what I am choosing to do...once again, sitting in HIS peace that is NOT of the world, and once again...feeling like an alien in my own skin. It is going to be good.....I just wish I had hindsight and could see the fruits now instead of later. ( I will never learn....)
The things that make her so fun are her smile, giggles, affection, activity level...I have no doubt that once she transitions in, she will follow what everyone else is doing...
Pray with me that her teachers will see her heart. That she will bring them joy from the first day. That they can smile and appreciate all that life has dealt her and feel the love that she truly brings to my heart each and every day.
And as I tell all of my kids...when I give them a K.I.S.S. it stands for
You are K..ind
You are I..mportant
You are S..pecial
You are S..mart
And I love you...
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I can’t believe that it has been 3 years since we first held you in our arms. In some ways it doesn’t feel that long but in another way it feels like you have been here forever. You are a perfect fit and we can’t imagine life without you. You have come so far in 3 years. You have amazed us all at how easy the huge transition was for you. I can’t imagine how scary that was for you. There were so many different faces, smells, sounds and so many unfamiliar language and voices. We are so proud of you!
When I think back of 3 years ago my mind automatically comes to this picture. I am in no means a person who think’s that I take a great picture, especially when I was 80 lbs heavier then, but there is something captured in that picture that I forever be grateful for. Can you see it? You have to look close.
That tear rolling off my eyelid.. that is the ache of waiting three years for you melting away. The pain in my heart of missing so many different milestones is being replaced with such gratitude that I get to have so many other milestones with you. The ache of my empty arms went away instantly as I felt your chest rise and fall against mine. Every single bump and hiccup in the process became worth it the moment you were placed in our arms. You’ve made your Mama and Dada look at life through your eyes and it is so much brighter with you in it. We can not begin to tell you how lucky we are to have you in our lives.
By adopting a child and helping them reach their potential, they help us reach ours. An adopted child is not an unwanted child; to the contrary. They are a child who was searched for, prayed for, cried for, begged for; received by arms that ached, making empty hearts full. Love is meant to be shared.
Happy Gotcha Day Myah..we forever learn from your strength and your survival skills...but mostly how you embraced our hearts and made us a complete family...
Saturday, July 9, 2011
As soon as Myah was released we stepped outside and we knew we had to go to church. We just had to...St. Patricks Cathedral
The kids held hands..Myah still a bit woozy but the boys held her up and they walked down the isle together..
Myah had 2 surgeries and then was sent down to have testing done while she was semi still sedated..The surgeries lasted about 6 hours. We all sat there and to my surprise the boys didnt move not once...they read magazines back to back like 4 times. Today was a proud mommy moment.
testing and more testing
She woke up in pain and was given some pain meds but I told her that if she wasnt well that she couldnt go home that they would admit her. Well she snapped out of it right away...Within an hour she was asking to get dressed and pointing to the door. She wanted out...
I'm not sure any of us got any sleep the night before. We talked about what was going to happen today and what to expect. The boys were excited to be on the front line with their sister. They got up, dressed and in the car by 4am...not a peep or complaint. we all just kinda went through the motions knowing what was ahead of us....
The boys waited with myah in the waiting room for her to be called in for prepping...they played in silence but the silence spoke volumes..
In a NY state of Mind...
The Make-A-Wish Foundation gave Myah tickets to the Empire State building with a simple note that read..."To the World you are One , but to us YOU ARE THE WORLD"..